this time its for real
always in anticipation. always. my heart thumped steadily faster. i can always sense it when he's there. always. everytime he's near, i sort of feel it. i look up to confirm it. and he's there.
my heart stop. just for that moment everything to me freeze. its him. right across the room. and as usual he did not dissapoint. he looks great. always. hahaz, even when he's shagged and wearing and army-print singlet, he looks good. but this time he looks... absolutely...
he noticed me. i tried to avoid eye contact. always. but our eyes usually meet aniway. he smiled. i smiled. bliss. my cheeks grew warm. warmer. thank god i remembered to breathe.
i went to sit down. next to my mom. my eyes wandered. always looking, always searching. and he suddenly appeared. my mum said something to him. he smiled. he walked off, only to return with something which my mum had obviously asked for. talk about being so sweet.
he's practically the only boy my mum likes. she always talks to him. always. always asks him to do little things for her that the others can do. but she never ask the others. only him. and he does not seem to mind at all. he calls my mum 'mum'.
this has got to be the longest crush ive had... ever since... i was in sec 2. thats some three years ago. and it doesnt die. it grows stronger. everytime. i wait with certainty for the next time i see him, so that i can just give him a smile. ive known him since i was very young. my earliest memory of him... is something so beautiful that i shall not even say it on this blog.
am i in lurve? am i finally in lurve after all the relationships n flings... am i finally going to get my heart broken? i am not sure. after being in this state for 3 or so years... i guess i can wait a little while longer to decide.
i tried to write a poem abt him. but it was just not enough to describe him. heck, this long write-up isnt enuff. everytime, there is just something new dat i learn about him. he makes me hapi with just a smile. just one smile.
if u r reading this...which i seriously doubt... u will noe instantly that im referring to you(there are not many guys whom my mum is civil to).
my heart stop. just for that moment everything to me freeze. its him. right across the room. and as usual he did not dissapoint. he looks great. always. hahaz, even when he's shagged and wearing and army-print singlet, he looks good. but this time he looks... absolutely...
he noticed me. i tried to avoid eye contact. always. but our eyes usually meet aniway. he smiled. i smiled. bliss. my cheeks grew warm. warmer. thank god i remembered to breathe.
i went to sit down. next to my mom. my eyes wandered. always looking, always searching. and he suddenly appeared. my mum said something to him. he smiled. he walked off, only to return with something which my mum had obviously asked for. talk about being so sweet.
he's practically the only boy my mum likes. she always talks to him. always. always asks him to do little things for her that the others can do. but she never ask the others. only him. and he does not seem to mind at all. he calls my mum 'mum'.
this has got to be the longest crush ive had... ever since... i was in sec 2. thats some three years ago. and it doesnt die. it grows stronger. everytime. i wait with certainty for the next time i see him, so that i can just give him a smile. ive known him since i was very young. my earliest memory of him... is something so beautiful that i shall not even say it on this blog.
am i in lurve? am i finally in lurve after all the relationships n flings... am i finally going to get my heart broken? i am not sure. after being in this state for 3 or so years... i guess i can wait a little while longer to decide.
i tried to write a poem abt him. but it was just not enough to describe him. heck, this long write-up isnt enuff. everytime, there is just something new dat i learn about him. he makes me hapi with just a smile. just one smile.
if u r reading this...which i seriously doubt... u will noe instantly that im referring to you(there are not many guys whom my mum is civil to).
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